I often wonder whenever I hear the words
"love is everlasting."
"Two couples ready to die for each other."
"Thousands of promises made for the coming years"
“Their company and being with each other was something pre-decided."
"It’s all a question of finding who has being made for you."
"They will be together forever."
"Love grows each moment."

I know this is all genuine, no offence indeed to these feelings, even I appreciate it all whenever there is a thing called TRUTH n TRUST in a relation.

But deep down within my heart a thought always springs up…………Isn’t all this a mere question of whom you met first in life, sequence of events shaped up and you are together today with a faith that this togetherness will be everlasting. A different someone, a different sequence, a different stage would have been there if the first one would not have occurred or will be there if the so-called "the first" shatters. Who after all has seen the future or what it may have in store which we didn’t even think of because all has once occurred and looks PERFECT.

Is it all really perfection or sheer luck of life at the first incidence that took place.

I also believe that love is beautiful, true, calm, pure but than what about these thoughts.

One can never deny the fact that all will be there till the course of even don’t take a reverse turn, a single instant (on part of anyone of the two) can blow away everything, then where is the thing called LOVE(the ever growing one), a long association, how could it be everlasting if everything goes in vain in front of this "single instant".

Is this me!!!!!!!


At one point I am dying for my close friends
I am dying for the 3 of us effect
At other point I want to run away from them
At one point I am afraid, terrified of being alone
At other point I am not even liking anybody even sitting in my eye’s vicinity
At one point I want to be in the arms of my Mom
At other point I don’t even want to pick up the phone
At one point I want to talk for hours with my best friend
At other point I just feel like throwing the phone down
At one point I want I am happy of dreaming about future , making plans
At other point it all looks so vague, as if it can never occur
At one point I feel as if I am the happiest person on Earth
At other point I am down to the bottom
At one point some of my thoughts, my feelings are the most close to my heart
At other point I want to set them loose
Why Why is this so??
And these points are not mere points ,they are instants one closely approaching the other
I want an answer
But wen?
But where?
But how?
By whom?
I simply don’t know!!!!!!!!!!!!

Is this me or is this the call for a change!?

Now finally time to compose some stuff about the place of my 3^rd year internship (NCL,pune).I am sitting in my lab and it’s lunch time going on. Here I must mention that it’s not my sincerity that is making me stick to my office but the pathetic lunch that is offered here.We finish it in 15minutes and then rush to our AC offices.The work that has been offered is pretty good ,of my liking at least. It involves sitting all day in front of computer and modeling and simulating reactors. The project has now started.

The campus at NCL is beautiful with lot of greenery around. My guide is also a real nice person with with enthu at 100% be it work or arbit baikat and a real helping person also.

I stay near this campus only in a 1 room flat and share it with 2 other people.It’s fun to be living on your own and managing everything though at times it is repulsive also ,for eg when you want to have some leisure time but you cant do that because you have to wash clothes (oh I hate that so much) or go to market place to get stuff for home but in all it’s good. I wish some of best pals were also here.

About Pune, though I have not seen most of it but it is a quiet place as compared to Delhi, the weather especially is pretty good, no skin burning heat strokes to my delight.But the traffic sense of people here makes me scream.

Weekends till date have been good , with one at my friend’s sister’s place and the next in Bombay with my cousin and friends.

One thing I like about these days that time during working days really flies fast. And that’s good also to keep me occupied.

That’s all what I have seen till date over here…..lets see what days to come have in store for me.

I saw light glowing from a point

And I lived it and I loved it

But this light was not the mark of a morning

It diminished and went off

And I could not stop it

I could not do anything

Now all that is left is the point itself

And a hope that there will be light again

And now I am living in that hope and I am loving it