One more BHM Nite, but yet the most different of it’s kind. Again the same enthusiasm ,same cheering of the hostels after getting the trophy. But yeah different for me as this time one of the trophies had my decision linked with it , the BSW trophy. This nite in some sense marked the official end of a term of responsibilities, decision making , management of a thing called post . What has not ended is the association linked with and the sense of responsibility towards it and can never end also at least not so soon.

I am at this point of time only wondering at the hue and cry I faced from so many people in the last one month and the way I handled it. Everybody needed my explanation on even petty things which literally psyched me so much but then I soon realized that this was also a part of my responsibility , from that moment I developed a sense of appreciation for views expressed both in favor of my working policies and also those that were against them. A strong impulse rose within me to go into the depth of each criticism and appreciation, may be I was searching for the level of my perfection. This was the second most critical period I faced during my term.

The first was the starting month when I started with my work, it was critical because everything was new to me be it the extent , the nature or the environment. I started from the root level of each thing and tried to develop a command. And I really enjoyed after that, all of this became a part and parcel of my life, an integral one.

Life really reverses and in a real magnificent manner. The same one month reversed back in the end . The first one demanded learning of management and the final one demanded an explanation of the same. I felt the same kind of frustration ,tensions and eagerness to prove myself, whether I did or not is for others to decide. But what I see today is that I have changed a lot in many cases for the better and in many cases for not so much better, may be some of these changes are temporary and will cease soon. I have left many things behind and really want to regain at least some of them.

But then as I always say ,this is life and it can''t be the same forever.