I recently attended a friend's marriage and did underwent through some realizations. We had three marriages in our group at work during 2-3 months. I felt an inner wave of nicety when these people gave their wedding invites. The first thing in mind was that how nice my parents would feel when they will go to invite their friends and relatives. At the marriage ceremony also, I didnt felt awkward at all this time. I could see myself there in future.
During my parents' 25th anniversary also I couldn’t stop getting senti on many things be it the ring ceremony we had for them which they never had at their wedding or the varmala once again. I could see the 25 years of their togetherness in their eyes.
So finally my mind has settled now to a large extent. It is not a lifelong commitment or marriage that I dread now. I want it someday for myself also at a time I will fully feel ready for doing it. I don’t want to do it for the sake of doing it but I want to do it in the best possible way at the best time with my complete willingness.
I always remember a phrase from F.R.I.E.N.D.S. that being in love means growing old together and I know now that it is worth every challenge and every fear.

I have finally started swimming after a long time, nearly 10 years I think. Though I remember few things, I have forgotten most. But I really enjoyed it a lot. It is one exercise which I love to do without getting bored.
Hope the spirit continues.

Mean corporate world!!

One thing which I have realised soon enough. Someone rightly said that it’s a dirty world out there once you decide to earn and live independently. Now I see examples daily. Somehow I have started liking not have too personal friends in the closest working zone of mine mainly my own team. I hate when people use sugar coated words in front of seniors or listen to whatever they say just to get into good terms with them. Where is the saying dudes that your work should speak for you. My whole mood gets pissed off here (this is what I encounetred this morning too).

It’s okay to chat or share drinks but yet I find it difficult not to be myself. If I am with my close friends I am not afraid to let out my thoughts which may be contrary to what she/he was saying. But in office, the same changes. I have to be careful because who knows what one can take personally and bring the grudge in official matters too. That is the one reason why I don’t want to indulge too personally with teammates.

The other thing that comes up is working with different age groups. I really like that but I do face some problems too. You will encounter colleagues of your parents’ age too. There are things that we refrain from in from of family elders. But what about in a work groups of ages between 23-50 or more. I don’t drink in front of my parents (bcoz I know they won’t like that). But what in such a group. I don’t want to face weird looks from elderly persons. Again that’s where I feel even more strongly that lets just be official.

I think it all needs time to adjust and define your behaviour. But no doubts life is not simple anymore.

A Happy New Year 2010

Another year has ended. Yet there was something different about it. First It was when I graduated as an engineer and second when I started my professional life. So in a way this is my first new year after being a professional. Being in college, I never thought about doing something on new year’s eve. Something used to turn by itself. But now you have to think. Yet this one was special and quiet one with great wine.
Three resolutions are at its peak:
1. Losing my extra fat. I really want to be regular here
2. Learning about my new discipline at work which is completely new for me.
3. Read and write whenever I get time

I hope I fulfil these two to the best.

Life is good when you have things to complete and promises to keep.