People say that love brings the most remarkable changes in a person's life, With my best friends getting committed,I am witnessing many such changes(initial stage changes) in them ,some strange,some cute, some with the innocence of a child, some stupid also........some of these which I noted most prominently are:
1.) Those people who used to get hyper on petty things and were ready to get pissed off if you tease them, every now and then ,now get senti most of the time on the same.
2.) All time blushing is the most significant sign ,and what is more interesting is the cute smile (:)) on any damm thing even if the thing is worth smile or not. Even while sitting idly or engaged in some work(as it appears so :P),they can be seen smiling not responding to anything for a while.
3.) Smiling even after crying or after getting emotional and sometimes both at the sametime. It appears to be true that
"Pyaar mein to khud ke aansoon bhi meethe lagte hain".
4.) Reading each line of chat, sms or cards hundred times whenever free and this has its peak frequency during the initial stages. I think that is what is reffered to as
"Holding Moments forever".
5.) Taking excess care of one's appearances ,standing in front of the mirror for hours, getting upset even if a single person passes a negative comment about one's looks ,then spending hours again for changing.
6.) Getting lost in their own dreamworld very often, unaware of what is going around. The world of fantasy appears to be more real than the reality itself.
7.) Those who are not committed look like kids to them ;"Leave it, you won't understand"; as if they have attained all the maturities of their lives by now :P.
8.) Talking on the phone (not to mention to whom) in almost a mute volume........ I wonder how the other is hearing or may be
"love needs no voice,it can feel the heart" :P
9.) Won't allow you to read even a single line of their chats or msgs even if their is nothing so personal in them or if it is allowed also, a continuous blushing will definitely be there :) .
10.) Tolerance power increases to the peak even for things which use to sound boring or non-interesting earlier.
true that each sem is obviously different from the previous one but there is something strange impelled in it. I don't know the reason for this feeling nor i know the consequences of it. But yeah one thing is very sure ''I AM NOT AT EASE''.
A very close friend of mine advised me to go and freak out with friends, I tried too but now of all things I am detesting the company of friends also. I just want to be in my room(though being alone is something very difficult for me).I really don't know what my mind wants of me, what does it want me to do,or why the hell it doesnt answer that why "I AM NOT AT EASE".
I am having an instictive feeling that I am forgetting something that was so close to me at some point of time. I am feeling hungry but I don't want to eat any thing or go anywhere to have something.All this is really strange for me ,one who always wants to live life to the fullest at each point of time. I seriously don't know what has made me so still and motionless for any kind of thought.
But yeah I (as always) here too believe that it is yet another passing phase which will get over after a while, I dont know what it will add to my life or take away from it.May its just a change what I am desiring of or may be the outcome of a hectic sem or one which definitely had something different.
For my friends ,don't worry,I hope I will be the same after sometime.
Positivity of Negativity
The title of this post may look arbit but its an important realization I am facing at the moment.Sitting far away from my home and my second home,at this moment I am missing both these a lot.I am missing my Mom a lott and I am dying for those stretched arms,a heart full of love ,the purest creation in this world.I am missing my home and everybody there.I am also missing IIT and my second home i.e. Kailash Hostel.A place for which my affection has grown so much in the past two years that I proudly call it my second home.I am missing all of my friends.IIT,a place that has shaped my personality,its my small world of happiness where I live my life the way I want, my gateway to the outside world but at the sametime so protective from it.My old friends say that I have changed so much and adapted so fast to a new system but I always reply that I never did anything ,IIT made me adapt to itself and now I am addicted to this system to the extent that I miss it even in my home during the long breaks,to mom dad it sounds strange,they are not able to digest that why do I miss my college when I am having all comforts at home and afterall I have come for my holidays.At the same time, if I am not able to visit home for long,I miss it too equally.Or if I m not happy or facing some problem,the nostalgic longing for my family is at once there,even before I look for a solution or a remedy.My home with all its affection prepared me for the challenges ahead and IIT is teaching me the ways to face these challenges .Each semester adds a chapter to my maturity.
And this is the positivity of negativity.......being sad at the moment and a heart full of longing for both these worlds of mine,atleast I am able to realize their so separate but equally important value in the treasure of my life.I know my association for IIT is short lived but a place in my life will always be reserved for this so-called addicted place.And as far as this state of mind is concerned ,i'll overcome in a short time.Its just a passing phase which keeps coming,being out of home for 4 years have taught me this very well.
Uchaalna(Oh i miss this so much)
1st person:-Hey wats up??
2nd person:-Well in my case ,....right now ceiling with tubelights!!
About the story below.....
This story came to me as a forward n to tell u my attitude towards forwards is to generally deleting them after having a look.But this one caught me and I was not able to delete it.I was actually moved by the story.A tear rolled my eye after reading its ending.This may not look nothin extraordinary to you but I dont know why it left me thinking for a long time.I dont know whether its a real life incident or not(it doesnt matter also).....but I could see the realisation of eternal love and the plight of its end.I dont know whether such so called eternal love exists in today's world or not but one thing I surely have faith in is that we all face this kind of realization at some or the other point of life.But then why it is not seen so alive today,.............after thinking a lot I got the answer....thats mainly because we mix all kinds of feelings with it which includes stuff like lack of understanding,misconceptions,selfishness ,lack of time ,there might be many more.And what we mostly see around us is everybody's self centered life.But we all have that one person(whether the persons exists or not doesnt matter here,atleast to me) deep within our heart and mind that matters all or will matter a lot in times to come.And deep within this feeling is another feeling of doing anything for that ONE.Its a real pity that we are not able to see the most innocent n pure creation in the world.But may be searching and putting even a bit of it into life is all what we call LOVE in LIFE...............
There was once this guy who is very much in love with his girl. This romantic guy folded 1,000 pieces of paper cranes as a gift to his girl.
Although, at that time he was just a small fry in his company, his future didn't seem too bright, they were very happy together. Until one day, his girl told him she was going to Paris and will never come back. She also told him that she cannot visualize any future for the both of them, so they went their own ways there and then...
Heartbroken, the guy agreed. But when he regained his confidence, he worked hard day and night, slogging his body and mind just to make something out of himself. Finally with all the hard work and the help of friends, this guy had set up his own company..
You never fail until you stop trying. One rainy day, while this guy was driving, he saw an elderly couple sharing an umbrella in the rain walking to some destination. Even with the umbrella, they were still drenched. It didn't take him long to realize they were his girl's parents.
With a heart in getting back at them, he drove slowly beside the couple, wanting them to spot him in his luxury sedan. He wanted them to know that he wasn't the same any more; he had his own company, car, condo, etc. He made it! What he saw next confusedhim, the couple was walking towards a cemetery, and so he got out of his car and followed...and he saw his girl, a photograph of her smiling sweetly as ever at him from her tombstone and he saw his paper cranes rightbeside her...
Her parents saw him. He asked them why this had happened. They explained, she did not leave for France at all. She was ill with cancer. She had believed that he will make it someday, but she did not want to be his obstacle... therefore she had chosen to leave him.
Just because someone doesn't love you the way you wa nt them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. She had wanted her parents to put his paper cranes beside her, because, if the day comes when fate brings him to her again...he can take some of those back with him...
Once you have loved, you will always love. For what's in your mind may escape but what's in your heart will remain forever.
The guy just wept...The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside her knowing you can't have her, see her or be with her ever again.........hope you understand.
Find time to realize that there is one person who means so much to you, for you might wake up one morning losing that person who you thought meant nothing to you.
As my new sem will be soon starting I am still remembering the May 9th,you must be wondering that it must be an occasion of special importance,yeah it was special in its own way.It was the day I faced the most terrified exam of my life,my Mass Transfer Major....a two hour paper(thats the scheduled time)and with 1 question of 50 marks and this paper was to my shock carried 50% weightage of the entire sem.Well what was more shaking was that I didnt knew the whereabouts of the problem to even a certain degree to be able to solve it(almost the entire chem dept was in the same plight....leave the 3-5 exceptions) because it was the question which wasn't expected at all,because it takes 3-4 hrs to solve it and the prof also said that programming is the only way to solve it and we took his word and left such kinda even in tuts.But here we forgot the most important thing,he was WALIA,one of the most stud and equally terrifying profs(due to his papers only)of the dept.He twisted the problem suct that it could be solved in the right time,you just know the method but that was the most ignorant thing in my mind.I was actually laughing on my plight,all the sincerity my parents boasted of me was looking just in vain.I did all I could do to solve it but I knew I was not even near the solution.I was sweating not due to heat of May but due to nervousness.I was terrified of my grade in the most important core of the dept.I submitted the paper and came out.Whatever I wrote was enough to flunk me or atleast a D grade was sure.I was not at ease.It was the last major and I was much more excited about majors getting over before this one.I couldnt sleep,couldnt rest at peace.I remember when I told Mom about it,she just asked was it an esaay type question n i said "no mom,it was a chemical numerical based on a single method taught very well". But then all my worries swept away when inspite of spoiling my 50% marks I got a 80%grading,i think he didnt took the majors into account or whatever.Even now I was laughing at the TEST WALIA put us into.His shocking surprises was only heard of but now I practically realised.I still very well remember the most shocking test of my life,my heartbeats ,n my dumb mind.
Somedays back I went for a drive to Downtown Chicago n I couldnt help myself but kept staring at the multi storey towers in one gaze.They were looking amazing in the night lights.They were spread over quite a large area with mindblowing combination of blinking lights on their sky touching tops.Just then,we were watching them from the other side of lake.The entire world was clearly visble reflecting underneath the water surface too.All was an amazing creation of mankind impelled with technology in its latest phase and at the same time keeping the beauty of nature intact.It all appeared like for a few moments I have reached the sky in the midst of billions of stars......I just want to hold this view forever..........
Last night ,I went to the lakeside beach with my friends.Itwas all dark and hardly any activity can be sensed of.Theonly thing that can be heard of was the sound of water,it wasvery loud like a roar but I dont know why,but to me itappeared very pleasant.It had a driving force impelled withinit.I started walking on the water and went a bit further inwater.The water was all chilled but I was not feelingcold(here I must mention that I am very sensitive tocold).There was a smooth sensation arising within myself thatwas compelling me to stay there only.There was a calm feelingarising within myself in the midst of the noise of tideswhich just made me thoughtless for sometime.I just didntwanted to go back.I was writing something or the other on thesand and then waiting for the water to clear every inch of itand then I was back doing the same activity again.It was abit difficult to believe that anything can have so much powerto arouse patience to this extent.I didnt wanted to go a fewsteps back where the sand would dry off all water and at thesame time that silent,innocent feeling,everything would justturn into a memory only. But that night I sincerely realised that everything hasits beauty and importance in its place only.The more you stepaway from it ,the more frequently your association with it iswashed away by the tides of time and all is left are justmemories of moments to cherish.But thats the only way tomould one's self into new bonds ,no matter whether the newphases are better or worse but they are necessary if one hasto move ahead.Life is like that only and carries all it'sbeauty and strength in this nature only.......